hiddled – adj.  feeling of loneliness of having to keep a secret to yourself.

I don’t know I am often hiddled. I don’t tend to keep secrets by myself. Often I do share with my wife, because it’s important to me to unload on someone, discuss something, or make them aware. That last one seems to be more important as I age.

That being said, if I didn’t share a secret, I would feel quite hiddled.

From the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows